Perspective
Third blog… It’s been a while since I’ve penned anything. Life is a big contradiction. We want to have all the best things in life, good food, good living standards, branded stuffs and many others. Yet the most important things in life we simply throw it back out through the windows or to the deepest and darkest corner of our mind
In life I’ve always thought of myself to be clear and precise of what I had wanted. However after the past 3 to 4 years of my life, I find that I dont really noe what the hell i want.. More precisely within the last few months in 2006, it has really been a test of what I want verus what i thought i wanted….
My marriage life is basically over and by end July, I guess I will be "free". But is that what I really wanted? Who knows? God? Well he has plans for me I’m sure but what plans are in place, only he knows. Recently, went back to the clubbing scene and found that nothing much has really changed. There are still the drinks and women and the ones u fancy and those who are competing with u for their attention.
Am i on a rebound or is it really like waht my buddy says of me. I simply "Fall in Love" with every single good looking women that comes my way? Have I been that "flirtatous" Seriously, if it was the me in the past well I guess I can say at least I’ve the basic criteria to be a "flirt" but come on….. People who knows me… well I’ve put on quite a bit of weight since marriage life… will there still be ladies interested in me?
Well low self esteem on my part perhaps or is it simply that the ladies at the clubs are just doing their job? They have to be friendly to the customers so that we will go back to the pubs. And there will be people like me thinking too much or reading too much into their actions and start to dream about dating them or other stuff…..
Life’s perspectives…. Varies from people to people. Right now, I’m going to enjoy my new found freedom and do the things that I’ve always loved doing and did not have a chance to do it during the darkest 3 years of my life. But in order to do that, first pay off my debts to my parents and friends who had unconditionally took me back into their life when my life lies in shambles and when I’m really down and out.
To them all. Thank you and you all will always be in my heart and prayers.
God Bless!